My Wish

As a senior in high school I lost one of my classmates in a car accident just three months before we were suppose to graduate. He just happened to be my best friends ex-boyfriend and I know she still loved him and wanted to be with him. He was also one of my other good friends, best friend and the day he died was her birthday. I remember going into school that day and finding out and all I could do was cry and just hug my friends. Yesterday was the one year anniversary of his death and just let me tell you I was down the whole day.

I have lost two of my grandparents before so I thought I was prepared with what was to come, but I wasn't. My classmate and I were not close but it was still hard and I hated to see my friends go through what they were going though. Most of my friends have not lost a loved one before so this was really hard for them. I never imagined losing a classmate and I don't want to have to lose one ever again, but I know in the future I will have to deal with this again.

Yesterday morning before I went to school I sent a text message to all my friends and told them to stay strong today and I also told them I thank God everyday to have them as my friends. Since yesterday was a hard day for everyone who knew Dustin I wanted to find a song to help me get through the day. Yesterday I turned to Rascal Flatt's song My Wish. This song just happened to be our class song and I love this song and helped me get through yesterday. The line that stuck out to me the most was" I hope you never look back but you never forget, all the ones who love you and the place you left, I hope you always forgive and you never regret, and you help somebody every chance you get." We can't ever regret what we do because we never know when our last day will be. Dustin and his family had no idea he was going to get in an accident that day and die. It also reminds me to thank everyone who has helped me get through everything I have been through. Yes, we will have hard days in our life but we have to stay strong and just keep living.

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No I'm Not Breaking

Well Spring break is coming up in about a week and a half so right now studying and keeping on track with my work is a little hard. I cannot wait for break to get here so I can just have one week to myself. This means no work(that's if I don't get called in) and no school work. I can sleep in and do what I want to do and I know every college student is excited for Spring break and can not wait to get away for a week.

As I procrastinate even more this last week I have to look for something to keep me going and not just giving up on my studies and homework. I can't slack right now because it's a busy time, i have mid-terms and i have scheduling my classes for next year. So as I have told you in my past blogs when I need something to get me going or I am down on myself I turn to music.

I know that I have used The Climb by Miley Cyrus for my inspirational song before, but there is a different part in the song today that helped me get through the day and the line states" the struggles I'm facing the chances I'm taking sometimes might knock me down but no, I'm not breaking." This line fits very well with what I am going though. Yes, all the school work and everything that I am dealing with in my life might be tough and might knock me down, but I can't give up and I have to stay strong.

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Best Days of Your Life

Well I don't know if anyone of you know but I am a huge soccer fan. I love to play soccer and it is my favorite sport.I grew up around soccer because both of my brothers played soccer and I have been playing since I was about six years old. As i got into high school I was nervous to play soccer because we had a strict coach. But, i stuck with it and I am glad I did. I was a four year starter in high school and i loved every minute of it. My soccer team was very good. My sophomore year we ended the year 18-1-1 and went to Regional Semi-finals and lost in double overtime.The team we lost to was very good and plus they were a bigger school than us. That was on of the hardest things in my life. We worked so hard to get there and all we wanted to do was go to state so bad but, I guess it was not meant to be. I played my next two years and I was honored to be captain my junior and senior year. Since I had so much success and earned many awards during my high school years I was asked to play soccer my freshman year at Defiance College, but i changed my mind.

I was scared going in as a freshman and just be pounded with a ton of homework. I wanted to get good grades and have a great freshman year. But, I wish i would have played. Next fall, I will be a sophomore I will be playing soccer at Defiance and I am really excited about it. Well why I am telling you all this? Well as we get into spring soccer season, we are starting to play in tournaments and play indoor soccer.I look back and remember all my soccer memories and all the great times we had. I became close with a lot of my friends and I can't thank God enough for putting me in that position. I think about all the success we had on the court and off the court. Everyone single one of us became better people because of our great coach and teammates.

I consider this some of the best day of my life. I look forward to having many more memories with my new team. Yes, it won't be my soccer team but, there are some great girls on the team and i look forward to getting to know them. As I look back at everything I went through during my high school and soccer career I consider them the best days of my life. Kellie Pickler writes the song Best Days of Your Life and the song as a line that fits perfect as I look at my past and it states " Cause I'll be there in the back of your mind from the day we met to the very last night and it just to sad you've already had the best days of your life." Yes, high school and soccer were a lot of fun and I have great memories but, as I start a new chapter in my life , i know i have great things to come and I can what to see what happens.

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According to You

Now ladies, today this blog is for you but,men read this very closely. Ladies,I want you to think about when you were a little girl and how you dreamed of marrying the perfect guy.We wanted to find the love of our lives and we wanted that man to love us for who we are. I am sure as you went through your junior high years you had many boyfriends(because i know i did),but they weren't really anything. But, as you got into high school and college you were looking for someone to spend the rest of your life with. Your whole mind set of dating changes as you get older and especially after you graduate. I guess you could say that you take dating a little more serious.

Well, at this very moment I am in a tough position.I am looking for someone to love me for who I am. I feel like I get attracted to all the jerk boys, and i feel like there is no perfect man out there for me. Right now, this boy and I are kind of dating. We fight a lot and he gets mad because he does not like certain things about me. All my friends tell me to get rid of him, because he is not worth it. But, I feel like I am never going to find anyone else.Why do i have to be so impatient? I feel like all the boys I have dated over the last few years want me to be someone different. They want me to change and be someone I am not. My mom and all my friends have always told me, not to ever change for a boy. They also said if someone ever wants you to change for them, then they are not the right guy for you.

As I was driving home from school today, I was thinking about my day. I thought about how the boy I liked got mad at me for simply asking a question and that upset me. I am the type of person to ask a lot of questions, and I guess I cannot help it. As i continued my drive,I heard the song According to You by Orianthi. This song talks about how one guy loves her for her and then another guy does not love her for her. One particular part of the song stuck out to me the most and it states " I need to feel appreciated like I'm not hated." These few words are so true. Everyone, not just women need to be loved and we never should get treated badly. We also need to be cared about, and that does not just mean being nice but that also means, loving someone for who they are. No one ever should have to change for someone.

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Lean on Me

Don't you love the days when you wake up and you just wish you could sleep for a few more hours, well that was me today. I woke up to a sick mom, and i just did not want to think about what was ahead of me today. But, I would soon find out it would be a good day.

I went to my only class at 8 and then came home to take a little nap and after my nap I was feeling like it was going to be a good day. I then got a call from my boss to ask me to work extra this weekend, because one of the other ladies could not work. So I became very excited because I am going to have some extra money!

After I did all my homework it was time to go shopping with my friends. I had a really fun time and sometimes I just need to get away and have fun with my friends. Tonight, that is what i did. I got out of house(since my mom was sick)and I got away from doing my homework and studying. I would have to say that I have some of the greatest friends around. They always make me laugh and we never have a boring moment. But, most of all they are always tehre to support me in whatever I do.

So today my song is Lean on Me written by Bill Withers. This song has helped me whenever I have tough times beacuse it states" Lean on me, when your not strong, And I'll be your friend I'll help you carry on, for it wont be long, till I'm gonna need somebody to lean on." I know that i will always have friends to help me with my problems and they know that if they ever need anything I will be there to help them to.
Whenever you think you are down, remember the great friends you have and how much they support you and how much they love you.

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The Climb

As i woke up on this cold, Superbowl Sunday, I was exhausted from the long and busy weekend I had, but i was also very excited because it was the Superbowl. Go Colts! I knew that i had a lot to do today and i knew it was going to be very busy. I had to get up and get ready for church, and then attend church. After church, I had to do my homework. I tend to be a procrastinator, so I knew that I had a lot of homework to do. Then later, I would attend a Superbowl party at my Pastor's house.

As I attend church everything is okay, but then after i get home and start my homework I get down on myself and i become very frustrated. I have so much homework to do and everything is just building up. My homework consists of writing a four page paper, finish my resume, write a cover letter, and finish my Fitness for Life homework. I start to get stressed out and become very upset.As a result of becoming so uptight all I wanted to do was cry and just give up. But I knew that was not the answer. I took a little time off from doing homework and i decided to listen to some music.

Whenever i get down on myself I turn to music and it helps me get through the day. Each and every day I experience new challenges and because of this different songs help me get through the day. The song that helps me get through each day brightens my day and puts me in a much better mood. Miley Cyrus The Climb is my inspirational song that helped me get through the day. There is a specific line in her song that really helped me today and it states " And I, I got to to be strong just keep pushing on".

This line from the song The Climb tells me to just stay positive and to stay strong in life. No matter what challenges I am faced with in my life and no matter how hard life gets to just stay strong and to have faith. It also tells not to get down on myself. Being sad and depressed make things worse. Everything happens for a reason and i just have to accept with what i am faced with. If i do this i can get through the day and get through any challenges I am faced with.

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